greenhills after office

i have been spending a lot of time with joan lately.  we've been friends since college but now we spend more time together than we used to.

unfortunately, we are bonding lately because we are both in a pathetic recovery from a break up stage.  misery truly loves company.

kanina we went to greenhills.  i bought a shirt and a blouse.  jo was able to buy a bag and a stuffed toy.  she was so eager to buy a stuffed toy.  she jokes that a stuffed toy won't leave you unlike a boyfriend.  haha.  anyway, she named it hug and today is hug's official birthdate.

we were so hungry after almost 2 hours of looking around.  we had dinner at won ton in promenade.  we had beef stew and chicken teriyaki.  the food was good but not really spectacular.  buti na lang, it wasn't expensive.

it was already past 10 but traffic was still heavy on my way home.  all of a sudden i feel empty.  this too shall pass.

addicted to blog hopping

since senate is on break due to the upcoming elections, there's not much to do in the office.  we have three main tasks during the break: (1) archiving our files; (2) updating miranda's books; and (3) drafting bills and resolutions.

to keep myself from getting bored, i do blog hopping.  this is my current amusement in the office.  it also helps me keep my mind off paprika dramas.

as of this moment, i think i have visited more than 30 blogs already.  haha.  i wonder what my officemates are doing to amuse themselves.

i love session breaks!

mga feeling pulitiko

eleksyon na naman at nagsusulputan na naman ang mga ambisyoso.  pwede ba hindi porket sikat kayo, pwede na kayong mag-ambisyon na maging senador o congressman. 

legislation takes more than just charms and the so called willingness to serve the public.  it's a cerebral task. 

hopefully, voters will make good decisions.  no more bong revillas and lito lapids. 

longest weekend ever

i think this has been the longest weekend ever.  i slept a lot, watched tv a lot and ate a lot.  my body feels so relaxed. 

i got a massage from our neighbor's manang masahista.  i kinda liked it but i still think ptm's massage is the best.  i hope i'll find a boyfriend who knows how to masahe.  ung masahe na mapapapikit ka sa sobrang sarap!  haha.

i'm re-reading Love in the Time of Cholera.  i read this book when i was in second year college.  it was a requirement for my hum 1 class.  i'm re-reading it because i ran out of books to read. i just finished Deception Point  which was okay.  i loved the ending primarily because the women regained control over the situation.

quality time with myself

i love going to the mall.  it has been a habit.  most of the time, i just window shop and buy pasalubong for my mom and my brother.  lately, i have been buying a lot of small stuffs but even the smallest items cost a lot nowadays.

kanina this bag caught my attention.  it's cute and it's big enough to carry my things.  i was kinda hesitant to buy it because it's kinda expensive.  i thought about it over and over and since i seldom see a bag that i like, i decided to buy it.  i've been using my black girbaud bag for the longest time, i think it's time for it to rest for a while. 

so, that's debit asset - bag 575 and credit asset - cash 575. haha.

my current favorite bread: french baker's asado roll (yummy!)

i just can’t love you back

n.p.p. made me feel so loved.  i think . . .  he can and he will take care of me; he can and will do anything for me; and above all, he loves me dearly. 

i enjoy his company.  i enjoy our conversations. 

i like that he's smart.  i like that he's patient and that he can put up with my stubbornness and my bad temper.

unfortunately, i realized that i just can't love him back.  i like him but i don't like him romantically.  i still love paprika.  i can hear the song of music and lyrics at the back of my head.  . . . trapped in the past, i just can't seem to move on….

he was very hurt.  but what can i do?  he was persistent.  i felt i had no choice but to be mean.  i had to make him understand.

i hope he moves on asap.  i really want him to be happy.  he deserves to be happy and to be loved.

it’s good to see you

paprika and i had dinner last night with his friends.  we missed each other a lot.  he asked permission to hold my hand.  i think that was kinda nice but really baduy if you think about it.  haha.

he asked if we could get back together.  he told me to come with him.  he told me he wouldn't marry.  he told me a lot of supposed to be kilig stuff but i'm now too skeptical to be kilig.  words are only true at the moment they were said. 

i asked if he ever cried, he said did.  i asked if gets lonely when he thinks about us, he said he does. 

he said i wouldn't be happy with him, that made me cry.

i know that we both love each other but i also know that we can't be together.

it’s always been you

paprika: musta?

grace:  ayos lang

paprika: anong ayos lang? ayos na ayos?

grace: yup, ayos na ayos.

kunwari pa ko e hindi naman ako ayos! haha. 

the conversation went smoothly.  but after we talked, i broke down and cried again. 

when will i get over you.  we both know we're through but we can't get rid of each other.

paprika: cge, bbye. love you.

grace: love you

take 2

i've deleted my previous posts.  wala lang. added pollution lang sila sa net.  i'll try to write sensible posts next time. o kaya kahit hindi sensible basta well-written o kaya mukhang pinagisipan man lang. 

anyway, congress is having two special sessions this week but my boss is sick so we're still on break mode.  i'm concerned about her health but i'm quite relieved that she's going to be absent for the special sessions.  i wouldn't have to be stressed about the agenda and whether we have interpellation papers or amendments papers for whatever it is on the agenda.  it gets really stressful when my other boss bugs me about papers i have already given him and for some reason he has forgotten about it.  i'll write more stuff about him and our love/hate work relationship next time.

from now on, i will refer to the big boss as miranda (the devil wears prada).  they are so alike.  they are both perfectionists, scheming, and ruthless. haha

my current favorite song

my officemate made me listen to love's a game by the magic numbers.  unang kinig pa lang, gusto ko na.  the song is in tune with whatever emotional drama i'm going through.

"love is just a game, broken all the same, and i will get over you…

love is just a lie, happens all the time, swear i know this much is true.."

how bitter! haha!

why, oh why, can't i upload the song?!