latest newbie
Friday, February 29, 2008the newest addition to the project started last week. because of her, we had to re-arrange seating assignments. pft! i had to give up the cube near the wall which i share with evil sis. our cube happens to be the most coveted area because you don’t have anybody behind you just the wall. benefits? extended lunch periods, eskapo without anyone noticing, surfing without being paranoid, etc.
according to my other homie, the rearrangement was brought about by me and evil sis. apparently, the big boss thinks that we have our own little world. we don’t hang out with the others so she thought of forcing us to join the gang by making us share cubes with the others.
well, we didn’t isolate ourselves for no reason. we didn’t feel the warm welcome when we came in. actually, i got irritated when i noticed that the way they treated the latest newbie is so much better than the way they treated me and evil sis. i guess they don’t like tall, thin women. they like women who are uhm… healthy. 
homie also said that they checked our friendster profiles before we came in and passed judgments about us. well, you know how girls are. they can say nasty things about you by mere vibes. it’s pretty hard to get along with women. i’m like that also so i understand. bottomline is, it’s okay not to be super friends with officemates as long as they like my outputs.
midterms
Thursday, February 28, 2008i survived the management control exam last night. yey! i think i did fairly well except for the number-crunching part. dupont + algebra spells disaster for me. it’s supposed to be simple but no! i was too autistic to solve a very simple problem. gone are my mtap days, i suck in anything mathematical! tsk. tsk. tsk.
finance is extremely important in mba. i want to be good in finance but finance is not cooperating. finance and i have a love-hate relationship. i’m attracted to finance, finance is not attracted to me. because finance is not reciprocating the attention, i get frustrated. thus, i ‘m not as motivated to pursue it anymore. haha! it’s kinda frustrating when i have to be constantly prodded before i realize the reasons behind the how’s and the why’s of finance. usually, i have a half-baked idea. half-baked is not exactly that useful.
maybe i’m not completely hopeless in finance. there was this one time when i said something in class and lo and behold the professor said it was a good point. it was really nothing but i was ecstatic, it was a miracle for me. hehe. i hope, i really, really hope that with constant pilit, i’ll be finance-savvy soon.
san shi si (34)!
when i said my supposed age in class, carlo (my super cool seatmate) immediately reacted. i was clueless about the error until he pointed it out. then i noticed that most of my classmates were looking at me, curious probably. i think they’re like 34? she looks way older! haha. it was super funny. i felt hilariously foolish. haha. 
the teacher asked me again. because i answered incorrectly, she said a lot in mandarin which i didn’t understand. major nosebleed! i just said, bu dui (incorrect) and said my age again just for the record. hehe. er shi si
quickie tag! :D
i got tagged by francine. this tag measures how quick i can type under pressure. haha.
honestly, i did the test over and over so i can display a respectable typing speed. haha! i’m not tagging anyone but i encourage everyone to try this test. it’s highly enjoyable especially when you’re uber bored in the office. 
special non-working holiday: feb. 25
Monday, February 18, 2008the president has issued proclamation no. 1462 declaring monday, feb. 25, as a special non-working holiday in observance of the 22nd anniversary of the edsa people power revolution.
personally, i think this hoilday is useless but a holiday is still a holiday. who wouldn’t want a long weekend!? don’t have to go to work, yipee!
just for kicks
to break the monotony, i try to do something interesting or something that i’ve never done before at least once a month. i’ve finally thought of a name for this activity, i’m calling it "just for kicks". yey!
for this month’s just for kicks, i got my ear pierced and i signed up for basic mandarin class.
i’ve wanted to have an extra piercing since college, hindi ko lang talaga tinutuloy even if i have clearance from my mom. so last saturday, i finally decided to proceed with the plan. i got a bit scared because i thought it was going to be painful and i’m going to bleed all over the place. sos, wala naman palang kasakit-sakit! there’s just a bit of burning sensation for a few minutes.
mandarin has also started. i’m really excited to learn to speak chinese. according to our teacher, it sounds more credible daw if we say i’m studying pudong hua (pronounced as putong hwa). hehe.
the class is for three hours so it was really a good decision to sit beside this guy classmate. not because he’s attractive (although i’m not saying that he’s not) but because he is semi-bibo. semi-bibo is good. it means he’s not too active ala-hermione granger but he’s also not papatay-patay in class. i have observed that the girls in the class don’t talk that much. mapapanis ang laway ko kung nakaupo ako sa tabi nila.
whadahek!
Friday, February 15, 2008found a gift on my desk this morning. pa-mysterious effect, he placed his name inside the gift. he even left out ONE letter of his name. whadahek!
amazing race asia: marc and rovilson lost. 
collin and adrian won.
cubicle assignments will be re-shuffled. so high school! yuck!
the 14th
Thursday, February 14, 2008well, well, well. 12 hours of work, and now i still can’t rest because of a case study. what i would have wanted…. a warm, big hug, a kiss on the forehead, and a dance. the way you look tonight might be a good background music. *sigh*
i’m so meredith grey right now.
moms say the darndest things
when i was about to leave for work this morning, my mom asked me why i was wearing lavender on valentines. lavender, she said, is for people who aren’t in love. she probably would have wanted to say bitter but decided to be a little more tactful. so i answered in an as a matter of fact tone that i’m not then i flashed her my widest grin and said good bye. mommy talaga! :)
the right-hand guy
Monday, February 11, 2008damages (my current addiction) touched on the issue that has been sitting on my mind the past couple of days. i haven’t spent much thought on it but when i saw damages i suddenly realized that this is something that i should seriously think about.
Patty: There’s a huge difference between being number 1 and being number 2.
Tom: Yes (nods) there is.
Patty: You’re a number two Tom. That’s your talent. That’s your limit.
just like everybody else, i aspire to occupy a higher position in the corporate ladder. i have been browsing job advertisements almost every week to asess whether or not i’m ready for something bigger. i think i’m qualified in some of these grander jobs but there is that voice in me that tells me you’re not yet ready. you need more - whatever that more is i’m not really sure. probably more skills, more experiences, more confidence, more, more, more. to get to where i want i need to accomplish and achieve more than what i am and what i have now. when will i be ready and will i ever be ready?
the usual comments that i get from my previous bosses say that i am responsible and dependable, i work on auto-pilot, i do what needs to be done, i don’t just raise issues, i suggest options. all these are good comments but all these indicate that i am a good employee. i provide good staff work. i’m good in providing assistance to the big boss. of course, i don’t want to settle on being the ever dependable right-hand man. i want to be able to call the shots someday (soon) and i’m dead serious about this goal.
however, i’m still worried. what if i’m just another tom shayes. what if i’m not cut to be number 1 and being number 2 is my peak? oh dear! oh no!
