the right-hand guy
Monday, February 11, 2008damages (my current addiction) touched on the issue that has been sitting on my mind the past couple of days. i haven’t spent much thought on it but when i saw damages i suddenly realized that this is something that i should seriously think about.
Patty: There’s a huge difference between being number 1 and being number 2.
Tom: Yes (nods) there is.
Patty: You’re a number two Tom. That’s your talent. That’s your limit.
just like everybody else, i aspire to occupy a higher position in the corporate ladder. i have been browsing job advertisements almost every week to asess whether or not i’m ready for something bigger. i think i’m qualified in some of these grander jobs but there is that voice in me that tells me you’re not yet ready. you need more - whatever that more is i’m not really sure. probably more skills, more experiences, more confidence, more, more, more. to get to where i want i need to accomplish and achieve more than what i am and what i have now. when will i be ready and will i ever be ready?
the usual comments that i get from my previous bosses say that i am responsible and dependable, i work on auto-pilot, i do what needs to be done, i don’t just raise issues, i suggest options. all these are good comments but all these indicate that i am a good employee. i provide good staff work. i’m good in providing assistance to the big boss. of course, i don’t want to settle on being the ever dependable right-hand man. i want to be able to call the shots someday (soon) and i’m dead serious about this goal.
however, i’m still worried. what if i’m just another tom shayes. what if i’m not cut to be number 1 and being number 2 is my peak? oh dear! oh no!
