bahala na!

a few years back i had a very ideal vision of my life at 25.  25 was my ideal age.  at 25, i was thinking that i would have this very successful career, earning a lot of moolah, and living the high life.  but from where i am now, i think i still have a long way to go.  actually, i think i am facing a deadend.  i don’t know where to go.  i don’t know where i’m heading.  quarterlife crisis maybe.  all i do is keep on moving, hoping that what i do will eventually lead me somewhere.  at the same time, i think where i am right now is where fate wants me to be.  my vision is different than life’s plans for me.  the gap between the two causes so much frustration.  and this frustration makes me realize that if i want to keep my sanity i should just let things be. 

i keep on saying that i will rock the 25 club and that is what i plan to do.  i keep on hoping and expecting for the things that i want to happen that i get too disappointed because they don’t.  but what the heck, why on earth will i take life seriously when nobody gets out alive?    i will try the happy go lucky approach (if i can).

kanina i was feeling sulky but now i have realized that maybe i don’t know exactly what will make me happy and if i will ever reach a truly happy stage but i do know what makes me unhappy.  so what makes me unhappy, i will stay away from.  bahala na lang ang buhay.  di ko na lalabanan, mangyayari naman ang mangyayari.  :)