sorting things out loud

• last night was just like old times but i am not 22 anymore.  
• two damaged individuals cannot be together but why in heaven’s name is fate keeping them together?  julio at julia kambal ng tadhana?
• the strength of one partner is not enough for two people. 
• the 25 year old me was able to handle the drama better than before but can I constantly deal with drama? 
• the drama was reasonable enough says the romantic.
• the neurons say that the reaction to the drama is unacceptable.  is tolerance a part of the system still?  didn’t you just say that compromise is no longer allowed?
• is the existence of drama a sign that nothing has changed?  maturity level has not improved?  the optimist says that there has been little improvement.  but is little improvement enough? 
• will things ever improve?  the optimist says it can.  the practical says that people are people no amount of miracle can ever change them.
• accept it, deal with it, whine about it or keep on moving. 
• can i really keep on moving?  in the first place, have i moved at all?  or is all this just a facade?  am i as stuck as i used to and will stay like this as time goes by?
• we only have one family in common.  i regretted letting you become part of that family.  i felt that i shared too much but somehow i have come to realize that you also find refuge in that family.
• you are insecure and so am i.  i want you to feel secure and that is what i did.  can you make me feel secure as well?
• fencesitters.  that’s all we can do for now.  nobody wants to take responsibility.  is it because nobody is prepared?  or is it fear?
• who knew that you can make a choice without even choosing?