starting over
Monday, September 8, 2008i just made a huge decision in my life. it’s a huge change - a step backward so i can move forward. i am not really sure if this is what i need to move forward but i have decided to take the risk. take the risk now or always look back and wonder what if. actually i don’t really have to take the risk. i’m ok with where i am now. well, ok but not fine. something can be done to upgrade the ok. so i am taking this risk in the hopes that the ok will be better.
it was a difficult decision. the thought of starting all over again at 25 bothered me. i was really bothered that i even cried while telling my mom about the news. and i don’t normally do that. i think the ego was the one taking over at that moment.
i am still in doubt. i have resolved (i think) the issue about moving back. now i’m a bit worried if this is something that i can do. it’s totally different, very different from what i currently and have been doing for the past four years. i’ll never know until i’m there so i just have to wait and see and do the best i can.
