it’s been two years! :)

oh my!  it’s been two years since i started this blog.  i remember that i started this blog just so when i google my name, this site would appear.  now, i realize that i want this blog to be as a secret as possible.  sometimes it’s liberating to share my thoughts with friends but there are also times that after sharing i just want to take my words back. 

i also remember that this blog used to be my outlet to vent out my paprika stories.  and then after that my dating stories.  all of which are now charged to experience. 

segway lang for a paprika update: every now and then, paprika would text or call which of course i appreciate a lot.  yihee!   before christmas i was really surprised that he called at 6 in the morning just to reminisce the “good times”, his words not mine.    it was sweet and thoughtful.  he asked if was already seeing someone and of course i said no.  i didn’t dare ask him back.  i don’t want to know.  what i don’t know won’t hurt me.  hahaha.   but i guess he’s not seeing anybody (keeping my fingers crossed).  well, at the end of the call, we both said the three magic words.  yeba!   i actually waited for him to say it first hahaha.  anyway, enough about the paprika story.  

it’s been also two years since i went back to school…and it’s going to be more or less two more years before i graduate. 

when i started this blog i was still working at the senate.  then i moved to tiger woods, inc. and now i’m in a new company again.  hopefully this would be the company where i would grow careerwise for the years to come.  i don’t want to go through the whole process of being interviewed and selling myself again. 

hhhmmm…it seems like a lot has happened but it doesn’t feel like it.   i can’t help but feel senti-senti when i look back.  tomorrow i’ll try to come up with something without a tinge of “senti-ness”

my thoughts on marriage

as i get older, the more i realize that marriage and having kids is not for me.  marriage is fun at the beginning just like a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.  it’s exciting.  it gives that thrill of spending the rest of your life with the person you love.  but the excitement will eventually die down.  you’d realize that your spouse is a unique individual just like you who behaves differently, has different ambitions, and who just like you would want freedom every now and then.

some people would want to have kids just so they won’t be alone.  i don’t want to be alone either.  but i don’t want to have kids so that i won’t be alone.  it’s a huge responsibility that i am not willing to take.  maybe i will change my mind in the future but for now, it’s a responsibility that i don’t see myself having.

so if i don’t want to get married and i don’t want to have kids, does that mean that i will have to live alone for the rest of my life?  ang lungkot naman nun.  :(  ideally, i want to have a companion whom i won’t get attached to.  constantly present but no commitment.  baka sa future, pwede na mag-rent ng ganon.  hahaha.

holiday season

christmas time again!  and unlike most people i don’t look forward to this holiday season.  it’s just not my thing.
i had to set-up the christmas tree again as i always do every year.  it’s like my annual responsibility and i hate it.  not hate, hate, but i just don’t enjoy doing it buti na lang once a year lang. 

sandaliang aliw lang ang pasko.  in two months time things will go back to the usual.