my thoughts on marriage

as i get older, the more i realize that marriage and having kids is not for me.  marriage is fun at the beginning just like a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.  it’s exciting.  it gives that thrill of spending the rest of your life with the person you love.  but the excitement will eventually die down.  you’d realize that your spouse is a unique individual just like you who behaves differently, has different ambitions, and who just like you would want freedom every now and then.

some people would want to have kids just so they won’t be alone.  i don’t want to be alone either.  but i don’t want to have kids so that i won’t be alone.  it’s a huge responsibility that i am not willing to take.  maybe i will change my mind in the future but for now, it’s a responsibility that i don’t see myself having.

so if i don’t want to get married and i don’t want to have kids, does that mean that i will have to live alone for the rest of my life?  ang lungkot naman nun.  :(  ideally, i want to have a companion whom i won’t get attached to.  constantly present but no commitment.  baka sa future, pwede na mag-rent ng ganon.  hahaha.

holiday season

christmas time again!  and unlike most people i don’t look forward to this holiday season.  it’s just not my thing.
i had to set-up the christmas tree again as i always do every year.  it’s like my annual responsibility and i hate it.  not hate, hate, but i just don’t enjoy doing it buti na lang once a year lang. 

sandaliang aliw lang ang pasko.  in two months time things will go back to the usual.