slow cook

it seems that the forces of nature are cooking up someting  nice for me.  i always say that patience is not one of my virtues.  but i guess part of the cooking process is to teach me how to be patient.

just as they say, good things will come to those who wait. 

i have a concern

i remember reading “go put your strenghts to work” as a requirement in my previous job.  not really a requirement but an encouraged reading.  as if there is a difference.  anyway, there are two things that i remember from this book:

1.  the book refers to something that is unclear or something that causes you to have doubts as a yellow light. 

2. when you are faced with a yellow light, don’t hesitate to say “i have a concern”.

ever since i’ve read that book, i always use “i have a concern” as a start of my dialogue when i am approaching someone about an issue or when i want to ask something or when i want to drive at a point without being direct.  

now, i find myself surrounded by yellow lights.  there is hesitation.  there is that urong sulong moment.  having moments of doubt is of course natural however, what i hate about it is the lack of an mmda so to say.  i am frustrated that there is no reliable authority whose wisdom i can trust and whose decisions i can depend on.  something has to change.  there must be someone who has balls to make decisions, stand by the decisions, and have confidence to say ‘sagot ko yan”. 

unfortunately, there is an mmda.  but the mmda is falling short of the expectations.  and it is just unacceptable.  sana wala na lang mmda di ba kung wala naman palang maitutulong.

there are times that i feel frustrated about the situation i am in.  i have never been a passenger in a car driven by an inexperienced driver.  i guess there is a first time for everything.  maybe, i should be optimistic about it and see things from a different perspective.  i should try to view the situation as an opportunity instead of focusing on how bulok things are.

heartless

why is it that when we like someone, we begin to pay attention to things that they have mentioned they lilke, we start to appreciate the things that they appreciate, and we exert a bit of effort to find our more about the things that mean something to them?  it’s silly really.  i wonder if this happens to men as well.  may be women are more prone to behave like this.  or probably it’s just me.

in a relationship, i think the one who loves more is the more sensitive one.  the one ws constantly feeling insecure is the one who loves more.  i’m not sure if i am right about this.  this is just my theory. 

the week that was

this past week has been really packed.  i haven’t stopped working since monday.  i brought my office laptop at home just so i could work over the weekend.  i had to talk to the IT person before i left work last friday so that i would know how to launch the vp nortel thingy.  i was able to finish a bit of work yesterday but there’s still a lot more to be done tomorrow.

today is sunday and i am working on my OB midterms.  since i sarted workng in makati, i try to finish all school stuff over the weekend because i’m just too tired to study or write papers after work.  travel from my house to makati is just too tiring.  i have to ride a jeep, then fx, then the dreadful mrt, then jeep again and then walk a bit before i finally reach the office.  that’s about 53 pesos one way.  i’m not the type of person who takes the cab because i think it is sayang.

i finally got the chance to try pepper lunch.  they have a branch in pacific star which is near our office.  i ordered pork pepper steak which was delicious. the teriyaki sauce adds so much flavor into the dish and it’s a good thing that it’s refillable.  i think what’s exciting about pepper lunch dishes is that it cooks before your eyes.  you get the feel of cooking the food yourself without all the fuss.  but i think it is quite expensive.  not the kind of lunch you would want to eat everyday, only on fridays or when you feel bad and you want to treat yourself.

this coming week would probably still be busy like the past week.  i still haven’t twatched the dvd i borrowed from my officemate.  it’s the secret of bees which is supposed be quite melodramatic.  hopefully after this week, i’ll get to watch it and write about it.

by the way, we now have wi-fi connection at home!  yey!   it cost me 2,000 pesos to get the d-link gadget.  we were supposed to buy the cd-r king router (if that is what it’s called) but according to the expert, d-link is the better option.  so for those who want to have dsl connection and would like to have wi-fi at home, i highly recommend you get d-link, affordable and yet dependable compared to other brands.